June 12, 17

Hey guys! So I guess I forgot about my blog again for a little while.... I'm really sorry. I'll try to keep it up as much as I can since I'm also writing more now. I hope you all still are interested in my blog even though I understand if you aren't. Anyways back to the drama in the life of Shelby Valint! I'm just kidding.. more like updates on my life. Its been a while since I've blogged so I'll try and remember as much as I can since that time. I honestly haven't been doing much at all. I haven't been in school since last year and a half ago because of medical issues. It also gave me time to lose some weight I gained for a long time of being in the hospital and being to weak to walk.

You guys don't really know what the last 16 years of my life have been like. Probably because I didn't get the full aspect of it either. Well, since I was born I wasn't able to walk. Even after many tests and surgeries they still didn't know. Everyone thought I was going to die by the age of 8. I was getting so weak that I was probably going to be hospitalized. Then out of nowhere my doctor (who I call my lifesaver) found this amazing medication that helped me be able to walk.

I finally learned to walk by the age of ten. Great right? Well.. good things aren't always as they seem. The medication also had some terrible side effects. They literally made me crazy. I could never sleep, yet barely sit down for five minutes. I did things I thought was ok when they weren't like hanging out with bad people and doing bad things. So i basically spent the last 5 years of my life in a daze. I remember some things but not a lot. I was in school but how could you possibly pay attention when your on some serious whacked out drugs. It was just sad this "miracle medication" did so much damage to me whether than help like we thought it would.

So my mom took me out of school and found me some help by another doctor who found me a medication that still helped me walk without all the side effects. We moved to Texas and I've been pretty much living at home since then. Its been pretty boring but I needed it. The problem now is just trying to find out who I am. I never even had a real childhood. I never got to ride a bike or go hang out at a friends house. It's a miracle I even have the social skills I have now even though they aren't the best. I guess I'm just trying to find myself again... if i ever did know myself. Writing about it definitely helps though.

So yes, thats my life at the moment. I'll try and keep up with my blog. Have a great week everyone:)

12/28/16

Hi everyone. I hope you all had a amazing Christmas with lots of gifts and joy. I sure did. Oh and another thing; I moved! All the way from Arizona to the great state of Texas. I've only been here a week but there are so many things I'm starting to love about Texas. In Arizona, mostly all you see is mountains and dust but here in Texas there's so many trees and grass. The air is so fresh and clean. Plus, this might sound weird but the people are so much nicer in Texas. Everyone open doors for people and everyone is so caring. I love it. I'm now living in an apartment with my family. Sadly, I don't really paint anymore because of lack of space in my room. I'm kind of oddly okay with it. Anyway just thought I would share that with you before you enter my crazy mind as you keep reading. Remember that book I was supposed to write.... ya never really got to it. I'm a bad procrastinator. Actually I just don't have any ideas what to write about. Its like a blank whole in my brain that I'm trying so desperately to fill but there's something missing. I hope I get to writing soon. Anyway, I hope you all have a great New Years. Bye:)

10/1/16

First day of October! Yay! I haven't gotten any writing done but just some basics to my book that I apparently want to create for some reason.
I get this high when writing. Connecting words to create sentences that have some kind of meaning. I like it. I haven't really been up do anything lately other than watching Netflix on my couch, since it is Saturday. So, maybe I only write when I'm bored? Nah...?? I believe I am good at writing so I don't want to diminish that.
If I ever write my own book I think it will be a great accomplishment for me.


Apologies if my blogs are short. I just run out of things to talk about but yet still need to release the ones I did talk about.

9/30/16

I'm feeling very different lately. Maybe its because my meds changed or the fact that I literally do nothing anymore and at the moment I'm just so bored, having nothing else to do. For some reason I always come back to writing. I only blog like every 3 months...... sorry about that. Maybe this time I'll continue...... not likely but possibly. Writing does help me express things that I can't quite get to with art, my usual form of creative expression. I quite like how easy writing can be, not saying that writing a book is easy, but instead of pulling out paintbrushes and palettes and taking days to create a whole masterpiece off of one simple idea, you just simply write it and hit publish. I guess thats more blogging than writing but whatever. I do want to write a book though, it seems fun. Stressful, but fun. For some reason I feel like it would give meaning to my life.

6/10/16

Life has ups and downs no matter who you are or what you do. You can't help it. Things fall into your lap and you have to deal with it. In my case, I was born with it. I've been dealing with it my whole life. Yet that doesn't mean its any less hard to deal with everyday. Sometimes you get so done with your situation that you want to give up and just be normal. Sadly, I can't.

May,15,2016

Hi everyone,
       Yes its me, Shelby. I'm alive:) so sorry for not posting in so long. Today I suddenly wanted to check on my blog that to be honest I sort of forgot about. Then I saw that people actually wanted to hear what I had to say. When I checked the comments people were actually responding. I was like, I have to write at least something back. So here I am. I'm pretty sure I will post more now. I mean with all the drama in my life I need something to drown myself out in and escape for a while. A lot happens in my life and I really don't want to go into details now. Something exciting did happen to me though. I moved! Its a lovely area called Anthem, AZ and its a very beautiful place to live. It has such a nice neighborhood vibe I cant get over it. Anyways I don't remember if I told you guys this but I'm actually an artist:)
     I love to paint and draw and everything in that realm. That's also one of my big zone outs. I sort of quite dancing but its ok because I found my true calling, I believe. If you would like to check out my art go to shelbyvalintart.weebly.com
     I really do appreciate all comments you guys give me. It really does help and keep me going.
                                                                THANK YOU:)

Jan, 15,16

    Hi everyone. Yes its me. I'm back. Why I was gone so long? Well I had my laptop taken away for a while for reasons I honestly forgot. I also started school and have honestly been so busy with my art. Oh wait? You didn't know? Yes I love art. Its been a major hobby of mine since the middle of last year. I might even make a whole new blog about it, but I don't know. Anyways just know I still care so much for this blog and who reads it and who takes the time to comment. When I logged on today I was astounded and so happy of how much activity my blog had gotten while I was gone. I hope you guys that commented still read my blog and of course I always welcome new viewers:)
So New Years passed and I didn't do anything on the actual day but I did want to share my resolutions for the new year.

1. Keep busy and out of trouble
2. Don't worry about relationships
3. Be happy

   Yes they are short but I wanted them not to have to be thought over, just simple. Man, have I really missed having a blog. Its so fun just to type and show your feelings, interests, and passions and see what other people think. Anyways I think for once my life is kind of on track......  besides my grades but I'm not getting into that. Maybe I'm growing up? I have no idea. All I know is that I don't mind it. It is helping me not make or continue bad choices I've made in the past. Growing up isn't as scary as I'd thought at 4 years old. I guess that's it. Thanks guys:)  Bye

May 31, 15

        

   Summer is getting really boring since I don't have that many friends to hang out with. I'm trying to hang out, talk, and text, but no one will and it’s killing me that I have no idea why. What did I do? Why did I lose my friends? Was it me? Myself? Should I change? These thoughts are speeding through and out my mind like race cars. I want to fix it. Everything, but I can't if I don't know what I did. I wore high heels to school because it was our last day and I wanted to dress spectacular. Is that so bad? Maybe that was it? I have no clue honestly. People at my school are so judgmental it’s honestly sick. I can't do anything about how people judge me but I can choose how I take it. Honestly I try and ignore it and without "friends" I can do more and work harder at what I love. I love to draw and I might post some pictures of my artwork later. Obviously I love to write and blog. To keep active I also dance which also helps me get out emotions that are bundled inside me, suffocating me. When I do these things I can let go and not think about anything. That's why I do them. Everyone should have some kind of de-stressor, I think.

 

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May 29, 15

     Told you guys I'd be back soon. I have been all over the place today. I went to Lake Pleasant with my family and my Dad's friend Rick who was super nice and kind enough to let us ride on his boat with him. We went wake-boarding and to be honest I almost drowned but of course it was still fun. All of us had a blast really. Then tonight I want to the park in my neighborhood for a music festival. That was fun...... well until all my friends ditched me. I've had this happen before so I'm used to the feeling. Then I sat alone for about five minutes until I found some friends to talk to until my mom picked me up. To say the least I thought I would come home crying and feeling so lonely, but I didn't. The people I talked to were so nice and actually cared. I've seen them around my school but we ever actually talked. Right now I'm so happy we did cause without them I don't know were I would be or what I would have done if they didn't. Friends are great to have but not if your not yourself around them. I learned that today. I want my friends to care about me and help me threw tough times. Is that so much to ask for?

May 27, 15

           

    Sorry I've been gone for a while. I've been busy with school and other things. I hope you guys still care to read my blog! It's been forever, I know but I'm back now. I try and imagine you guys reading my blog and I come up with nothing. I sit crisscrossed on my couch with my laptop situated on my lap and poor my heart out to you guys listening to Twenty One Pilots, hoping someone cares. I guess even if I don't have an audience with advice to comment and read my posts as soon as I publish them, I shouldn't care. It's an outlet. More than anything it's a place to let myself go. Well anyway what do I have to tell this week? Hmm well schools out! YAY SUMMER!!!! I'm so excited to sleep in and do nothing. I have to retake one semester of math next year because i failed. It sucks. School stresses the hell out of me. Homework, friends, drama, clubs, grades ... All of it. Lucky seniors don't have to deal with it anymore. Stress is so common in teens nowadays it’s ridiculous. It’s almost sick. High school is supposed to be the best years of your life. Why do schools take that away? At least let us enjoy our lives before we get sucked into the workforce when we turn 18. I don't want to get into it because if I do in five minutes I'll be researching debates on this topic and whatever audience I have will fall asleep and not want to read my blog ever again so I'm just not. I know that was supposed to be funny, sorry. I don't have that one funny gene that the school clowns and cool people get. I wish I did, to be honest. I don't have that many friends at school even though I try so hard to make them. Well, I think I'm going to end there. I'll be bored all summer probably on my laptop so I'll be back soon. Stay strong, beautiful, and happy :)

March 30, 2015 Intro to blogging

Blogs can be boring. I promise to make mine as fun to read as possible. All you need to do is read it. Maybe also comment:) Anyways life is okay right now. Not the best but its ok. I wish I had more friends. I have a few best friends but they can never hang out. Maybe they just don't want to. Don't know but its ok. I have so much more to focus than friends like school, family, and other stuff. I love art and dance but they are just hobbies.Writing is also one of my hobbies. Writing helps me clear my mind. I have a diary I keep with all my biggest secrets that I always keep hidden and it helps me get out emotions and ideas that I can't exactly share out loud. Blogging is a whole different story than just writing in a diary but I think it will also help me a lot with my feelings also. Blogging might also help me become a better writer. Who doesn't want that? I just hope blogging will be for my own good, not for bad purposes.

I don't consider my life normal because of my disability, combined with issues that every teenage girl has to go through,. I've wanted to create a blog for a while now just to let out how I feel and  to teach, inspire, and motivate others. So I started a blog.... this is my first post. Back to the top of the page, yes I do have a disability. Its like Parkinson's Disease but not the exact same. I was in a wheelchair, not able to walk or talk for the first ten years of my life. One thing, read that last sentence again. People don't understand how much walking and talking can mean to living until their put in a situation without it. The first ten years, none of the less the most important years of my life I spent in a wheelchair stuck in my own mind while other kids ride bikes, swim, have fun. This is my life. I want to share it with you. Warning: may be depressing and sad but usually funny and inspirational :)