9/30/16

I'm feeling very different lately. Maybe its because my meds changed or the fact that I literally do nothing anymore and at the moment I'm just so bored, having nothing else to do. For some reason I always come back to writing. I only blog like every 3 months...... sorry about that. Maybe this time I'll continue...... not likely but possibly. Writing does help me express things that I can't quite get to with art, my usual form of creative expression. I quite like how easy writing can be, not saying that writing a book is easy, but instead of pulling out paintbrushes and palettes and taking days to create a whole masterpiece off of one simple idea, you just simply write it and hit publish. I guess thats more blogging than writing but whatever. I do want to write a book though, it seems fun. Stressful, but fun. For some reason I feel like it would give meaning to my life.

6/10/16

Life has ups and downs no matter who you are or what you do. You can't help it. Things fall into your lap and you have to deal with it. In my case, I was born with it. I've been dealing with it my whole life. Yet that doesn't mean its any less hard to deal with everyday. Sometimes you get so done with your situation that you want to give up and just be normal. Sadly, I can't.

May,15,2016

Hi everyone,
       Yes its me, Shelby. I'm alive:) so sorry for not posting in so long. Today I suddenly wanted to check on my blog that to be honest I sort of forgot about. Then I saw that people actually wanted to hear what I had to say. When I checked the comments people were actually responding. I was like, I have to write at least something back. So here I am. I'm pretty sure I will post more now. I mean with all the drama in my life I need something to drown myself out in and escape for a while. A lot happens in my life and I really don't want to go into details now. Something exciting did happen to me though. I moved! Its a lovely area called Anthem, AZ and its a very beautiful place to live. It has such a nice neighborhood vibe I cant get over it. Anyways I don't remember if I told you guys this but I'm actually an artist:)
     I love to paint and draw and everything in that realm. That's also one of my big zone outs. I sort of quite dancing but its ok because I found my true calling, I believe. If you would like to check out my art go to shelbyvalintart.weebly.com
     I really do appreciate all comments you guys give me. It really does help and keep me going.
                                                                THANK YOU:)

Jan, 15,16

    Hi everyone. Yes its me. I'm back. Why I was gone so long? Well I had my laptop taken away for a while for reasons I honestly forgot. I also started school and have honestly been so busy with my art. Oh wait? You didn't know? Yes I love art. Its been a major hobby of mine since the middle of last year. I might even make a whole new blog about it, but I don't know. Anyways just know I still care so much for this blog and who reads it and who takes the time to comment. When I logged on today I was astounded and so happy of how much activity my blog had gotten while I was gone. I hope you guys that commented still read my blog and of course I always welcome new viewers:)
So New Years passed and I didn't do anything on the actual day but I did want to share my resolutions for the new year.

1. Keep busy and out of trouble
2. Don't worry about relationships
3. Be happy

   Yes they are short but I wanted them not to have to be thought over, just simple. Man, have I really missed having a blog. Its so fun just to type and show your feelings, interests, and passions and see what other people think. Anyways I think for once my life is kind of on track......  besides my grades but I'm not getting into that. Maybe I'm growing up? I have no idea. All I know is that I don't mind it. It is helping me not make or continue bad choices I've made in the past. Growing up isn't as scary as I'd thought at 4 years old. I guess that's it. Thanks guys:)  Bye

May 31, 15

        

   Summer is getting really boring since I don't have that many friends to hang out with. I'm trying to hang out, talk, and text, but no one will and it’s killing me that I have no idea why. What did I do? Why did I lose my friends? Was it me? Myself? Should I change? These thoughts are speeding through and out my mind like race cars. I want to fix it. Everything, but I can't if I don't know what I did. I wore high heels to school because it was our last day and I wanted to dress spectacular. Is that so bad? Maybe that was it? I have no clue honestly. People at my school are so judgmental it’s honestly sick. I can't do anything about how people judge me but I can choose how I take it. Honestly I try and ignore it and without "friends" I can do more and work harder at what I love. I love to draw and I might post some pictures of my artwork later. Obviously I love to write and blog. To keep active I also dance which also helps me get out emotions that are bundled inside me, suffocating me. When I do these things I can let go and not think about anything. That's why I do them. Everyone should have some kind of de-stressor, I think.

 

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May 29, 15

     Told you guys I'd be back soon. I have been all over the place today. I went to Lake Pleasant with my family and my Dad's friend Rick who was super nice and kind enough to let us ride on his boat with him. We went wake-boarding and to be honest I almost drowned but of course it was still fun. All of us had a blast really. Then tonight I want to the park in my neighborhood for a music festival. That was fun...... well until all my friends ditched me. I've had this happen before so I'm used to the feeling. Then I sat alone for about five minutes until I found some friends to talk to until my mom picked me up. To say the least I thought I would come home crying and feeling so lonely, but I didn't. The people I talked to were so nice and actually cared. I've seen them around my school but we ever actually talked. Right now I'm so happy we did cause without them I don't know were I would be or what I would have done if they didn't. Friends are great to have but not if your not yourself around them. I learned that today. I want my friends to care about me and help me threw tough times. Is that so much to ask for?

May 27, 15

           

    Sorry I've been gone for a while. I've been busy with school and other things. I hope you guys still care to read my blog! It's been forever, I know but I'm back now. I try and imagine you guys reading my blog and I come up with nothing. I sit crisscrossed on my couch with my laptop situated on my lap and poor my heart out to you guys listening to Twenty One Pilots, hoping someone cares. I guess even if I don't have an audience with advice to comment and read my posts as soon as I publish them, I shouldn't care. It's an outlet. More than anything it's a place to let myself go. Well anyway what do I have to tell this week? Hmm well schools out! YAY SUMMER!!!! I'm so excited to sleep in and do nothing. I have to retake one semester of math next year because i failed. It sucks. School stresses the hell out of me. Homework, friends, drama, clubs, grades ... All of it. Lucky seniors don't have to deal with it anymore. Stress is so common in teens nowadays it’s ridiculous. It’s almost sick. High school is supposed to be the best years of your life. Why do schools take that away? At least let us enjoy our lives before we get sucked into the workforce when we turn 18. I don't want to get into it because if I do in five minutes I'll be researching debates on this topic and whatever audience I have will fall asleep and not want to read my blog ever again so I'm just not. I know that was supposed to be funny, sorry. I don't have that one funny gene that the school clowns and cool people get. I wish I did, to be honest. I don't have that many friends at school even though I try so hard to make them. Well, I think I'm going to end there. I'll be bored all summer probably on my laptop so I'll be back soon. Stay strong, beautiful, and happy :)